As time passes by I decided to share with my website and you the readers some of my diary writings. The first of many days I am sharing is the diary covering March 30, 2015. It marks the first year anniversary from my heart attack.

Today, 30 of March 2025, one year passed from my heart attack. March 30, 2014 I survived and also stopped smoking forever.

Somehow, coincidentally, that same day I received an early morning message. It was from my son Nicholas. At the time, he was studying psychology in London. It was 5.40 a.m. his time. He did not sleep all night. Something was bothering him. He has an issue about communication with his girlfriend at the time.  He said that people tell him that he is very nervous, i.e. that he gets angry quickly and has no patience. That he has a “short fuse.”  Dad, he asked, am I really that nervous and impatient? Is that my character trait?

Well, Nicola, I said,you are neither more nor less nervous than average person. They also say about me that I am nervous. I get nervous when I hear people who do not first look at themselves. They judge others with such easiness. So, do not bother and let anyone introduce the etiquette that you are nervous. What I can tell you objectively is that you have a good heart, but you are easily influenced by others. This does not mean that you can be called nervous. All is normal human behavior in the societies we live in today.. You will learn how to face that and many other issues in the future. What you have and many will be jealous about is a good heart. Keep it that way and develop it.

Then I asked him what had happened and he was still awake?

He said that he quarreled a lot with his girlfriend and that because of that, he couldn’t sleep.

Where is she now, I replied?

She is here near me in the same bed and she sleeps!

That is a good sign, I told him.

I did not want to go further analyzing his behavior because we had a difficult relation. I proposed to him to go to the nearby kiosk and buy a rose or any other flower. He will leave it on the side where she sleeps. Then, he should go to sleep without any other thoughts, as he also needs rest.

He liked the idea. With a couple of sentences, he said that he respects and loves me. He continued that he wants to spend more time with me when he comes back home. We finished our conversation.

I liked that he thought of me and contacted me early in the morning. I genuinely hoped that I had given him good practical advice. 

I did not hear from him in the next two weeks. This is normal for him. It was never normal for me. It was always bothering me as I felt that I am like a boxing sack… But still, I learned to live with it. So I decided to send him a message. I asked about the issue they had. I also asked how things are going now.

He replied to me that they were in a great state now and that both were forgotten about that quarrel. I asked if he did buy a flower, and he proudly replied, YES! But not one flower, I bought her a whole bouquet of fresh flowers! I laughed as I remember him as a 12 year old boy. He asked me to take him to the flower shop. He wanted to buy flowers for his first love to go with his gift for her birthday. 

After finishing a messenger call, I felt that a few tears visited me. To be honest, despite our difficult relationship, I was very moved by his reaction.

August 17, 2025

Darko Richard Lancelot

Philosophyofgoodnews.com

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P.S. Many from my diary pages will be difficult but I can confirm and declare that all are truthful and genuine.